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I’ve been having more unpleasant dreams than usual. More meaning in greater numbers.
Sunday, I wasn’t feeling well so I spent most of the day in bed…dreaming. It was a long day filled with one unpleasant dream after another. In the morning, I had mentioned the pain I was having to my mom (my whole body [...]
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Hey all. It’s been a while since you’ve heard from me. But Livvy is too out of it and emotionally disconnected to write about herself at the moment. Currently, she’s lying in her tent, utterly dejected. She’s had an emotionally charged and straining day. Currently, she is feeling completely fat and ugly and cowardly because [...]
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I thought I done my duty as a good little blogger. I wrote about my time away, my struggles and joys and hopes for tomorrow. I patted myself on the back and went on to me next blogger role: reading your blogs.
That’s when it all sank in. Damn. Keeping up a front is hard. Being [...]
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I find myself very emotional tonight. I didn’t sleep at all last night and spent the day in the emergency room with my sister who was having severe nausea and stomach pain.
I have been awake for close to 40 hours. I started my day off with some Mountain Dew. If I treat it like food, [...]
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I caught something. Probably a cold. Though, if you asked me to drescribe, off the top of my head, the symptoms for a cold, flue, etc, I wouldn’t have a clue. I’d put up with it at work yesterday and all day today and finally decided work tomorrow would be a lot easier if I [...]
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If I thought my stomach hurt before, boy does it now! I haven’t had a lot to eat this week, which is nice because it means I haven’t been binging and purging. Monday and Tuesday the doctor had me on clear liquids. Wednesday and Thursday I slept most of the time and didn’t have an [...]
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Those were the words my sister spoke as I exited her car before work today.
I was instructed by the ER doctor not to work yesterday or today. However, I was called into work the closing shift. This meant working 3pm to 2 am. My sister was kind enough to drive me to work so I [...]
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Today has been very unfun. I haven’t felt well all day. I’ve been very emotional. I gained half a pound. So on.
I was very nauseous today. I don’t handle nausea well. Pain I can deal with. Nausea I cannot. On top of that, my throat was very sore. I’m guessing from all the purging I’ve [...]
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Tired. I am tired. Very.
I opened at work today which means I was up at 6:00am. However, Monday I close. This means I’ll be home around 1:30am. So I’m trying to stay up til midnight or 12:30 to help me not be as tired as I was last time I closed. I’m so used to [...]
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Wynken, Blynken, and Nod (Dutch Lullaby)
by Eugene Field
Wynken, Blynken, and Nod one night
Sailed off in a wooden shoe—
Sailed on a river of crystal light,
Into a sea of dew.
“Where are you going, and what do you wish?”
The old moon asked the three.
“We have come to fish for the herring fish
That live in this beautiful sea;
Nets of [...]
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