Posted on September 10, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Hey all. It’s been a while since you’ve heard from me. But Livvy is too out of it and emotionally disconnected to write about herself at the moment. Currently, she’s lying in her tent, utterly dejected. She’s had an emotionally charged and straining day. Currently, she is feeling completely fat and ugly and cowardly because [...]
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Posted on September 8, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
I leave in my wake a trail of failed treatment attempts. How do I feel about treatment? I really don’t know. I may have the opportunity in the upcoming months to do a special kind of residential treatment. If the chance comes up, I would go, whole heartedly. That said, I just have so many [...]
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Posted on September 8, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
I have a slight case of the post-purge jitters. I just finished purging my only real meal of the day. Granted, not being an actual meal does not diminish the loathing for that muffin I ate, with intentions to purge but didn’t. But that’s another story altogether.
I just finished showing my mom how to find [...]
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Posted on September 3, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
I saw this on another blog about 20 minutes ago.
This is a link!
It’s part of a book about a male food critic with bulimia. I read through, it took a while to get me interested. After about 2/3 of the way through, I realized I want to find a man with an eating disorder. Is [...]
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Posted on August 31, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Last night was rough. I got very little sleep. I let my camping spot as 6:27am and walked over to the library. I arrived at 7:30. It opens at 9:30, so I had a 2 hour wait. I was freezing cold from my long night and damp from the morning dew. I was stiff and [...]
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Posted on March 11, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Ok, I love the line in this song that says, “let your clarity define you”.
Let your troubles fall behind you….I have some friends who are encouraging me to seek treatment. I decided to at least look into it. So I printed out the aplication. And, in tears, I filled it out.
I [...]
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Posted on March 9, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
**Warning: major self-harm triggers may lay in the text below. Please read with caution**
Nights are not good to me. Neither is too much free time. It’s all starting over again and it’s starting to scare me.
No one knows what I was like a couple years ago when my eating disorders was really bad. Some people [...]
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Posted on March 6, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
I find myself very emotional tonight. I didn’t sleep at all last night and spent the day in the emergency room with my sister who was having severe nausea and stomach pain.
I have been awake for close to 40 hours. I started my day off with some Mountain Dew. If I treat it like food, [...]
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Posted on March 3, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
*I started this post on the 25th of February and then lost internet**
I get that question a lot. (See title) The answer is always the same, “No.” Until tonight. I do need to go tonight. But tonight the only energy I can muster is to shake my left foot in an attempt to burn some [...]
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Posted on February 1, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
I am an arms dealer.
Fitting you with weapons in the form of words
And don’t really care, which side wins
As long as the room keeps singing
That’s just the business I’m in
I’m a leading man
And the lies I weave are, are oh so intricate, oh so intricate
I’m a leading man
And the lies I weave are, are oh [...]
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