Posted on September 10, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Hey all. It’s been a while since you’ve heard from me. But Livvy is too out of it and emotionally disconnected to write about herself at the moment. Currently, she’s lying in her tent, utterly dejected. She’s had an emotionally charged and straining day. Currently, she is feeling completely fat and ugly and cowardly because [...]
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Posted on September 9, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Posted on September 8, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
I leave in my wake a trail of failed treatment attempts. How do I feel about treatment? I really don’t know. I may have the opportunity in the upcoming months to do a special kind of residential treatment. If the chance comes up, I would go, whole heartedly. That said, I just have so many [...]
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Posted on September 8, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
I have a slight case of the post-purge jitters. I just finished purging my only real meal of the day. Granted, not being an actual meal does not diminish the loathing for that muffin I ate, with intentions to purge but didn’t. But that’s another story altogether.
I just finished showing my mom how to find [...]
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Posted on September 3, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
I saw this on another blog about 20 minutes ago.
This is a link!
It’s part of a book about a male food critic with bulimia. I read through, it took a while to get me interested. After about 2/3 of the way through, I realized I want to find a man with an eating disorder. Is [...]
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Posted on September 2, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
The last 2 nights, I’ve cried myself to sleep because I feel so abandoned. I’ve also been waking up from nightmares. I don’t know what they’re about, I just know I wake up crying and afraid.
I’ve moved into my parents’ back yard. My dad doesn’t know I’m here, he never goes to the back yard. [...]
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Posted on September 1, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Today, I met up with my brothers and one took the three of us to see District 9 and out for pizza and this place called Tony’s that has the biggest pizza I’ve ever seen. After the movie, I went to the restroom and heard a Fall Out Boy song, I don’t know the name. [...]
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Posted on August 31, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Last night was rough. I got very little sleep. I let my camping spot as 6:27am and walked over to the library. I arrived at 7:30. It opens at 9:30, so I had a 2 hour wait. I was freezing cold from my long night and damp from the morning dew. I was stiff and [...]
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Posted on August 29, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Today I had 4 liters of Mountain Dew and stayed up with my brothers playing video games and watching movies. We all had a case of severe fits and giggles by the time we hunkered down for the night with The Fifth Element on the tv. I’d never seen it before.
Nothing much to report. The [...]
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Posted on August 27, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
There is a vein in my wrist that sticks out in one spot and taunts me so. I want to slice it open. Not to die. Just to see the blood flow. But I’m too cowardly to try.
I found my box of art supplies and I was looking through it. I found my recovery binder. [...]
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