Posted on September 10, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Hey all. It’s been a while since you’ve heard from me. But Livvy is too out of it and emotionally disconnected to write about herself at the moment. Currently, she’s lying in her tent, utterly dejected. She’s had an emotionally charged and straining day. Currently, she is feeling completely fat and ugly and cowardly because [...]
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Posted on September 9, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Posted on September 8, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
I have a slight case of the post-purge jitters. I just finished purging my only real meal of the day. Granted, not being an actual meal does not diminish the loathing for that muffin I ate, with intentions to purge but didn’t. But that’s another story altogether.
I just finished showing my mom how to find [...]
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Posted on August 27, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
There is a vein in my wrist that sticks out in one spot and taunts me so. I want to slice it open. Not to die. Just to see the blood flow. But I’m too cowardly to try.
I found my box of art supplies and I was looking through it. I found my recovery binder. [...]
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Posted on August 27, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
**Warning**
Self-harm trigger warning.
Where are you and I’m so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and [...]
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Posted on April 14, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Beast: I want to do something for her… but what?
Cogsworth: Well, there’s the usual things: flowers… chocolates… promises you don’t intend to keep…
from Disney’s Beauty and the Beast
Some promises are so hard to keep…
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Posted on April 13, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
I love long sleeves. They’re so comfortable and warm and welcoming. And these ones are really soft. This is the first time I’ve worn this shirt. It’s a cream and tan striped, hooded, light-weight sweater. None of this really has anything to do with the purpose of my post tonight, but as I was getting [...]
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Posted on April 13, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
**Warning: Trigger warning! Do not read this post if you are likely to be triggered by the description of self harming or if you have an aversion to reading about blood**
A pair of new shoes with matchin’ laces!
A permanent box at Sheepshead races!
A porcelain tub with boilin’ water!
A Saturday night with the mayor’s daughter!
Look at [...]
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Posted on April 8, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Let’s start on a happy note.
Ok…
*Deep breath*
Well, just got back from a 10-day trip to California to visit friends. It was one of the most magical and trying weeks in a very long time.
I enjoyed myself so much. Biking to the beach, going to Disneyland, playing cards, watching movies, so many [...]
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Posted on March 9, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
**Warning: major self-harm triggers may lay in the text below. Please read with caution**
Nights are not good to me. Neither is too much free time. It’s all starting over again and it’s starting to scare me.
No one knows what I was like a couple years ago when my eating disorders was really bad. Some people [...]
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