Posted on September 2, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
The last 2 nights, I’ve cried myself to sleep because I feel so abandoned. I’ve also been waking up from nightmares. I don’t know what they’re about, I just know I wake up crying and afraid.
I’ve moved into my parents’ back yard. My dad doesn’t know I’m here, he never goes to the back yard. [...]
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Posted on September 1, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Today, I met up with my brothers and one took the three of us to see District 9 and out for pizza and this place called Tony’s that has the biggest pizza I’ve ever seen. After the movie, I went to the restroom and heard a Fall Out Boy song, I don’t know the name. [...]
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Posted on August 31, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Last night was rough. I got very little sleep. I let my camping spot as 6:27am and walked over to the library. I arrived at 7:30. It opens at 9:30, so I had a 2 hour wait. I was freezing cold from my long night and damp from the morning dew. I was stiff and [...]
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Posted on August 29, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
I’m not even angry.
I’m being so sincere right now.
Even though you broke my heart.
And killed me.
And tore me to pieces.
And threw every piece into a fire.
My family has 7 children. The oldest, a girl, is engaged to be married. I’ve never known her very well, we’ve never had much in common and have a large [...]
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Posted on August 4, 2008 by lyricsonthelake
So, I was in Utah for a couple months working on recovery. I was staying with a friend while I was there. I won’t go into detail, but let’s just say the way things ended also ended our relationship.
A bit after I moved back home with my parents, I received a very long email from [...]
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