Posted on September 2, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
The last 2 nights, I’ve cried myself to sleep because I feel so abandoned. I’ve also been waking up from nightmares. I don’t know what they’re about, I just know I wake up crying and afraid.
I’ve moved into my parents’ back yard. My dad doesn’t know I’m here, he never goes to the back yard. [...]
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Posted on September 1, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Today, I met up with my brothers and one took the three of us to see District 9 and out for pizza and this place called Tony’s that has the biggest pizza I’ve ever seen. After the movie, I went to the restroom and heard a Fall Out Boy song, I don’t know the name. [...]
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Posted on August 31, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Last night was rough. I got very little sleep. I let my camping spot as 6:27am and walked over to the library. I arrived at 7:30. It opens at 9:30, so I had a 2 hour wait. I was freezing cold from my long night and damp from the morning dew. I was stiff and [...]
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Posted on August 29, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Today I had 4 liters of Mountain Dew and stayed up with my brothers playing video games and watching movies. We all had a case of severe fits and giggles by the time we hunkered down for the night with The Fifth Element on the tv. I’d never seen it before.
Nothing much to report. The [...]
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Posted on August 27, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
There is a vein in my wrist that sticks out in one spot and taunts me so. I want to slice it open. Not to die. Just to see the blood flow. But I’m too cowardly to try.
I found my box of art supplies and I was looking through it. I found my recovery binder. [...]
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Posted on April 9, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
When the toast is burned,
And all the milk has turned
And cap’n crunch is wavin’ farewell.
When the big one finds you
May this song remind you
That they don’t serve breakfast, in hell
from Breakfast
by Newsboys
I don’t know why, but I feel like posting my food consumption. I feel all scattered and keeping track of my food helps me [...]
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Posted on March 21, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Ok, this is a very embarrassing post, but I’m going to be completely honest.
Reasons bulimics shouldn’t get tax returns:
1 frozen Totino’s pizza ($1.40)
2 liters of Mountain Dew ($1.25)
9 ice cream sandwiches ($7.00)
4 Heath Klondike bars ($3.50)
2 handfuls of Doritos ($4.00)
1/4 box of Triscuits, complete with squeeze cheddar ($10.00)
10 miniature assorted candy bars ($7.00)
1.5 M&M cookies [...]
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Posted on March 19, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
I fell asleep around 4:45am this morning. I woke up at 6:12am. Apparently we were supposed to leave at 6:15 but neither my brother or I knew that. So we ran to get ready to go. I was ready at 6:22. My mom and brother took considerably longer. Then, my brother couldn’t find the forms [...]
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Posted on March 3, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
*I started this post on the 25th of February and then lost internet**
I get that question a lot. (See title) The answer is always the same, “No.” Until tonight. I do need to go tonight. But tonight the only energy I can muster is to shake my left foot in an attempt to burn some [...]
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Posted on February 11, 2009 by lyricsonthelake
Most awkward lunch….ever? I have class for work on how to be a better manager. There are 20 of us in the class. We broke for lunch. I purposely took my time in the bathroom so everyone else would go off to lunch. We don’t really know each other, no one should miss me. Imagine [...]
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